One thing that I have had difficulty with for many years is the recollection of situations or happenings that didn’t end well. When I am left alone to do my chores, walk alone or be by myself, my memory recollects it much faster and relives those situations all over again. I fall in to a feeling of desperate wish to go back and do things differently to change the negative outcome to a positive one. I would feel so stupid about myself to have not read the situations properly to take the right move towards a better outcome.
In the reflection process, things become clear, there is time to analyse and
understand. But during any specific event – In spite of being all present in that moment, it may not strike all needed chords to take the right action or say the right things.
I do appreciate the learning I get to take from my past failures and I hope to become a bit more wiser to apply that learning in the future. I also realize that this learning I get by reflecting leads me to recollect those events too often in my mind and I end up feeling this deep wish to have done things differently.
This poses questions in my mind – Are there side effects to the process of Reflection? Does it lead us to be tied down to our past more often? Does it lead us to relive those moments without being asked for?
I realize that it may take another level of abstraction to exercise Reflection to side track the likely side effects!